Back to January...

Aloooohaaa~

Here it is, January all over again...yet in another new year. 2011. *takes a deep breath*

Things haven't changed that much. I am still breathing, still surviving my own life.

Although...few things have been causing my head to be filled up with questions...*sighs*

And my ex's father died a few days ago, with him asking me to come over to his house to meet his mother and family. Dear God, I am feeling complicated with that. Scared. Clueless. Maybe I will go over to his house...along with some friends. :)

Yep, yep...and I lost some jewelries that my love one bought me. I am so doomed. I can't find it...and although my love one said it's okay, I am feeling rather guilty. MUCH!

What else? emm...oh oh, I wonder when will I have my BLS instructor course...hopefully not too soon, not too far away. aha! :P

Happy Eid Al Fitr

It's 10th of September and it's RAYA time!!!

Happy Eid Al Fitr everybody!! Mmmwahs!!

And yes, happy advanced birthday to my baby~ 11th September it is!! But I will be working tho..cian my baby~ ehehehe...

Thankfully, I have my day off on the first Raya Eve~ alhamdulillah...syukur berabish~

But after this, I will be working 5 days' straight!! Oh my GOD!!

Oh well, berbakti kepada negara~ :) Menuju ke warga sihat...ehehehe~

Spidey webs, HERE!! My GOD!

It's been a while. Well, quite a long time. Like ages since I do anything here. Not that I don't care but life has been taking its toll on me. Simply said, my commitments are demanding my very presence.

Well, it's almost 2 years since I started working as a Paed nurse. Too many things learnt, too many things seen and too many things *annoyingly* faced. For example, kids in this newest generation of ours tend to be very, very SPOILED and rude with brutish attitude. And I, simply cannot stand it. I wish I can just give a headslap or a backblow to them when they are behaving such ways. *Haha!* HOW I WISH!!!!!! But...NOT! Which is such a disappointment...*sob sob*

And life is going preeeeetty steep with lots of downhills. Way down. Which I am not very much happy about. Thus I feel myself getting negative with lots of angry vibes. In turn, that I cannot control some of my outbursts and emotional roller-coaster ride~ Well, whatEVER! I just think I need to be in an anger management class...REALLY!! Also some feelings that I am UNWANTED among some people's lives. Geez...am I that unimportant? No one even asked me for anything else no more like before...sighs.

BUT...lovelife has never been more great than ever! I am thankful at that one point, though. To have someone to care about you, to cherish you, to really comfort you in any possible ways! For that, I am greatly thankful to be with that someone! Yeaaaay! Muchos amore~

Anyway, Happy Ramadhan y'all~

I hope I can just break free...please, please, please~

Wubb,
Kisho23

Back to work!

It's been waaaaaaay, waaaaaaaaay too long since I've put anything in this blog!! Fuuuh...

Life has been, full of ups and downs. My work is still stressing as ever, although now, I've been put to work for the H1N1 vaccination centre in the indoor stadium to jab high school students. Maybe until early May. And in betweens, I may get pulled back into the ward. Yet again, another year being put here and there just like last year with my being pulled to Tutong and got to be an isolation nurse in RIPAS for the H1N1 cases. I guess, I may even be a H1N1 nurse expert by the time everything is OVER!! Wow...

Nonetheless, life is oh-kay for now. I'm still surviving. I'm still here. Alhamdulillah.

And I'm still getting fatter. Ouch! :/

SHR

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all my peepz & whoever is reading this....

Mohon maaf segala salah dan silap, harap di ampunkan...

Kerna manusia pun bisa membuat pelbagai kesalahan kerna diri kita tidaklah sempurna...

:) Happy Eid Al Mubarak...

Cizmo - Korean clothes' shopping haven

I absolutely LOVE to buy some clothes from HERE!

Anyone...please buy one for me? LOL...

Saya suka baaaa!! :D

i want to break free

i am so stressed out. Almost at an edge, pushing me slowly down to the verge of breakdown. I might go insane, tortured in this miserable feelings. Like a dark flame, like a dangerous mass of negativity.

It's killing me, this feeling.

No one can help, no one can lend a hand to save me.

Because the hands that can, are the hands that push me over the edge.

I want to break free, i want to disappear just for a day.

Please, let me be gone...